Last night while making sense out of nothing..err..I mean while contemplating, broken relationships (friendship in particular) crossed my mind. I have been very blessed, and God has been so good to me. I realized though that the reason I cannot be happy all the time is the fact that I still have issues to solve. I can't be completely happy if I know that this broken frienship is not yet fixed.
I texted a friend. I asked her something, then she said: "Sometimes it's just a matter of guilt. Somehow you feel guilty of not being too nice kaya you can't be too happy." Makes sense huh?
As for me, it's more than guilt. I just want to make things better. It kinda surprised me that I took the courage of taking the first step. 2009 was a tough year for me. I went through a lot of things, disappointments, failures, pain (physically and emotionally), and unexpexted horrible experiences. Maybe all of those things happened to teach me lessons and to believe in myself that I am a strong person and with God nothing is impossible,
As I started my year though with positive attitude and by being thankful with all the blessings God has given to me, I realized that I cannot be truly happy if I still have broken frienship. It's high time I take the first shaky step to make things okay.
Of course there would be questions and not-so-good-opinions, but surprisingly I wouldn't care at all. I don't know. For some reason, the thing I did is something that I would not regret. I hope I'm making sense here
To my surprise, I also feel better now... :)
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