gibberish..random..

It is difficult to put into words every emotion we have, especially if it is so extreme that only us could understand the profundity of how we feel. I can't help but blame myself sometimes for being too emotional. This kind of character never fails me to put myself into trouble.
Too much anger hasn't failed me to hurt other people or to do things that are unacceptable for other people. I've been through a lot. I need to put myself back together to start a new life, one that is positive.
Too much sadness causes me to entertain a lot of negative thoughts, fear, anxiety and insecurity. I'm a kind of person who doesn't know how to hide her emotions. When I'm sad, I let the other people know, the bad thing about it though is that I feel worse when I know that other people are happy. How selfish is that?
I don't think I make sense here. It's like I'm talking gibberish again. That's the effect of being so alone at home.

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I haven't updated this blog for ages. I just didn't feel like putting into words things that have happened and all those feelings. A lot of things had happened already. Of course the highlight would be my husband's vacation. After 8 months of being apart, thanks to recession hehehe he came home sooner than expected. 4 weeks of being together is very short. We were so busy with our new home, buying furniture, fixing things, and all those errands so time really flew fast. Good thing we were able to go to Bora and had some quality time together. I can't wait for his next vacation. I'm also waiting for some good news.
Now, I cannot express how much sadness I feel right now, of course I miss being around with my husband. I miss his cooking:) I miss his jokes. I miss how he makes me smile and laugh. I miss how he fools around. I haven't changed our sheets, our pillowcase, and our blanket. His scent is still there and smelling that masculine scent makes me feel like he's just there hugging me and watching me while I asleep. So, for sleepovers I won't allow you to use our pillows hehehe

To my husband,
We've been through a lot, but we can still prove to ourselves how much we love each other and how far we can go to make our marriage life better. I still believe in promises. I love you so much....

NAIA