sleepless night

I'm not really busy these days but there a lot of things going on. I don't know what to do. I want to do a lot of things. I have quite a few oppurtunities but I don't know which one to take. Now I end up just thinking what to do. I really have to set my priorities but I'm afraid to take risks. I already did actually, but i don't know if I'm on the righ track. WTF!

I'm a super woman wanna be! Time really flies. My birthday month is almost over. After a few days it'll be another year. I'm gonna turn a year older again. Then what? I should be able to accomplish things in three years. I'm giving myself three years to accomplish things, but what about the things I also want to try? I'm not yet busy but thinking of the things I'm gonna do for the next few days feels like my hands are so full already. Well, I love being busy but! Can I?

For some people, my dilemma is so simple. I'm just giving myself a hard time. I remember a new colleague telling me last night that I should not think of keeping two jobs because I have a husband who can support me. Yeah, I think he can, but I'm not used to asking for help so I can pay bills or buy things I need.

When I was still studying, asking for extra allowance was not that easy. I learned the value of saving. When my other siblings would give me extra allowance aside from my regular allowance i would save it so every Christmas I could buy gifts for the whole family. Then when I was not yet working I made sure that the money my sister saved for me (if ever i want to study again) was for meaningful purposes. If I borrowed some, I made sure that I paid my sister back. I cannot imagine myself stuck at home waiting for my allowance. It's just not fullfiling at all.

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What to do when alone during sleepless nights? Things I've been doing for the past few days..

I'm nocturnal again hehe..I'm back to being very active at night.

I sleep at around 5. Spending the whole night in front of my laptop.

• My appetite for watching movies is back. I don't know what happened. For the past few months I was not into watching movies. I just got bored of spending hours watching a movie. It's like "celebrities" overload too. The last time I watched a movie in a theater was a year ago I guess! I don't feel like a loser naman hehe. Now I just watch movies online. I can now watch the movies I missed. Good thing it's back because there are still quite a few good movies to enjoy. finally i got to watch The Joy Luck Club! a must see for every woman!
• My other addiction is blog hopping. I love reading celebrities' blog. I'm a sucker for people who can "really" write but the good thing about their blogs is it's not very stressful heheheh...
• Top celebrity bloggers:

• patty laurel-- her blog is really entertaining..She's so full of enthusiasm...very cheerful
• chico garcia-- i'm a huge fan of The Morning Rush!
• ala paredes-- so independent..fearless thoughts
• zsazsa padilla-- you can see the other side of her. i'm not a fan of her but she writes well hehe
• jim paredes-- musings of a true artist..he's an inspiration!
• bianca-- she used to have many entries but now she rarely posts..(should be deleted na hehe)
• brian gorell-- he's not really a celebrity but he became one because of "gucci gang.." juicy gossips i must say hehehe....visiting his site enables me to check other gossip related sites hehe
• kitty go-- of course who doesn't love gossips about the high society???hehhe
• leah salonga-- reading her posts feels like she's talking to her readers...just imagine how she speaks...with her accent and how fast she speaks hehe

What will I do next? I've been wanting to have a real hobby..i want to be physically active..like play some sports or maybe just do yoga or hit the gym..i wish i could..

just another sleepless night of random thoughts..