need to get rid of my angst..and angas person hahaha

i don't want other people to affect my mood and i don't want anyone to affect my day. But! this person is really getting into my nerves already. She is the true epitome of manggagamit. She's nice to other people (especially sakin) if she needs something...like she needs to borrow money or i need to do a favor for her..I always try to be nice because when i'm mean i am really mean and i am always understanding and she is so mayabang now. As in sobrang yabang. I can still remember the day when she was just starting. She was like the worst teacher ever. She has improved a lot. I mean really A LOT! but now she is so mayabng ang nangmamaliit ng ibang tao..as if she is reallly good..and I hate her for always making fun of me because I'm not tall..yeah she is relatively tall. But i'd rather have this height and still look pretty and loof fab than to be tall as she is but looking like an elephant or dinosaur..oopps that was according to other people hehehe. hay nku, since there is no one here in the office i can talk to about my angst this blog has been a good outlet for me to express how i feel. I just hope she'll learn to be humble since she's still mediocre anyway. now i'm getting mad huh?
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anyway, since i've expressed my angst already i'm feeling better. Now i need to get things done.. yesterday i talked about the things i should be able to finish this week.. and i forgot apartment hunting pa pla, listening to some wedding songs so the people who are going to sing can prepare their piece na..and then dinner/ bridal shower with friends pa..and i'm working pa pla hehe
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i hope this day will get better.

busybusyhan..

monday..monday..so so sleepy today..i took a 5 minute nap in between doing evals and listening to some classes.. I was dragging my feet to work. Last night I was so so lazy to go to work. I talked to my fiance for an hour on the phone..and after our conversation it took an hour before i finally fell asleep though i didn't have enough sleep last weekend. i've been thinking a lot again lately. I'm so busy contemplating what i will do. and i have a lot of things to do!
i'm not excited about going to work anymore. i want to be enthusiastic again. i miss being so cheery. can't wait for things to happen..
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things to do this week:

• meet our wedding planner to discuss styling details
• go to munisipyo to talk to dswd people because we couldn't attend family planning seminar together [ do we really need to know the do's and dont's? hehhe]..we don't have our marriage license yet! and since i'm only 24 i still need parent's advice. wedding preparation is really tough!
• go to my very dependable friend Daisy to fill out the form for my passport..yeah.i stll don't have a passport heheh
• go to my dentist for my braces again.since we're running out of time..i need to see her once a week..i need to get rid of my braces before our wedding so i won't look like betty la fea on my wedding day
• and oh...go to our brangay halll and secure a copy of brangy clearance...Why do we need a lot of papers????
• and i should be able to relax on friday since saturday will be my first day in school..can't wait to go to school again!
• and oh..i also need to go to some of our ninangs and ninongs...

- my hands are full! arghh.

friday..woohoo

soo..so happy for my friend Merky..la lang..it's just that, the day he had his first interview in that bio-gas company i asked him to go with me to our 'sanctuary.' we decided to meet in our sanctuary since it's not crowded naman on weekdays so he could see me agad..i had my moments there..then he arrived saying: "tpos ka na magmoment neng?" then i said.."hell yeah" while drying my tears hahaha..i so love that place. After my moments there we had a madrama conversation at gloria jeans over a cup of chocolate drink..i felt so relieved after that..nothing really beats going to my sanctuary then go to a coffee shop when i feel so so bad..going back to my friend..i'm just so happy for him..well i hope the things i've prayed for will be granted..since most of those are not for me but for the people i love and care about..

and while my friend is very excited about his new job..i'm now having a dilemma whether to continue working here after my wedding or find another one..i wish life was a lot simpler. i wish i could just leave..i just don't want to have any regrets in the future and say..i could've...i should've...
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a week from now i'll be busy again on weekends. it's back to school time..i can now imagine myself cramming on friday nights..lots of papers again..i wish i had a knack for writing..i'm not really confident when i see my professors with PhD reading my papers..i always lack vocabulary.. i need more academic terms so my papers would look like a paper written by a graduate school student hehe..arghhh...
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got a lot of random thoughts today..it's friday..can't wait to take a long nap...
happy friday everyone!

i've just talked to my boss...and now i realized that it's really coming..hays...3 weeks from now it'll be my much awaited vacation..i'll be getting married in june..woohoo..so i asked for a 5 week leave. Luckily, they allowed me to.i was reluctant at first but when i come back i'll still have the same rate and i'll still be one of the TLs. some of the bosses are kinda apprehensive thinking that i wouldn't come back anymore. they think that i'd get pregnant agad and that i'd just stay home and be a full time wife..but hey, can i do that? i would love the idea of just staying home..taking care of the whole family..maybe for a little while, i can...and the thing is my hubby will go back to States.. nway...yeah they're now considering the person i recommended to be my assistant TL..i feel sorry for the other one because i know that she is more capable..and she is much better..but the other boss likes the other one because she has stayed in the company for almost a year now and the other one is just new..i just hope that we made the right choice...i wouldn't want the other teachers hear their TL speaking with her regional accent hehe..she has this regional accent kse..and i kinda don't like her attitude..well... no choice n lng tlga hehe..

the company still wants me to come back..it feels great knowing that they trust me..yeah.i'm earning a relatively good salary..but the thing is i don't like the working environment anymore. so im still thinking if i'd come back or not..i love the job..but i don't want to work with people who don't even know the meaning of 'techie' ... omg! hehe..the question now is..when i leave this company..will i miss the people i'm working with right now as much as i missed the people i used to work with from the company i used to work for? i just hope there will be better oppurtunities for me..

starting again

been blogging for a while..i've used blogspot before..got a wordpress account..multipy account and friendster blog. but i think i need to decide now which one to use..someday i want to look at this and read all my entries feeling very proud of what i've become..it's high time i maintain one blog account..
there are a lot of happenings i want to share to the world..thoughts keep on pouring..and i don't where to start..
just can't wait to post another one again..